It’s one of those days…or weeks really….when everything is getting to me…when I say everything I think I mean stuff that has been brewing under the surface for a while and me letting various things accumulate rather than dealing with them and now I feel angry and upset. I am not going to go into details (and no, it is not with my husband or family, they are great at the moment)(or with God). It is a big mix of various things and I’m going to try to unravel them on my own later.
I feel irritated and wound up and the only way I can describe it is with an almost electric type energy that makes me want to pace around. I think I just need to pour it all out in a rant to God and then he generally heals things and me and gives me his perspective and also clears my mind. But at the moment I feel restless and fed up (and no, it is nothing to do with the move either, I’m actually ok with that and looking forward to it).
So I need to pour out everything to God in worship and by sitting and walking and being with Him and writing things down. Then it will be ok. I’m glad I know him, before I knew him I couldn’t have done this.
I’m also going to get going and spend some good time with my kids, go to a cafe with J and baby. That is one of J’s favourite pastimes at the moment, take the dog out, get on the allotment, but God is the one who sorts it. Not doing this stuff…although it is great.
It is a bit personal, but I think part of blogging is being vulnerable and open…….no date to move yet, but will keep you informed.