Be still

Be still and know that I am God.

(Psalm 46:10)

I feel really stressed a lot of the time at the moment and I don’t really know why. I find it difficult to settle in one spot and just enjoy the moments. I feel wound up and tense a lot of the time. I’m trying to learn to be still. To listen to God again, to just be with him, no matter what I’m doing, where I’m going or what is going on.

Gods peace is something else, it is actually unexplainable unless you’ve experienced it and his presence. It’s what I want and know it’s what I need, but actually sitting with him and just simply being, is hard at the moment. It shouldn’t be, but it is. I can be sat in the sunshine with my kids and instead of enjoying it and being present, I start worrying or my mind wanders.

I think God is working in me, I feel a bit like dough at the moment. I make pizza most Saturdays using bread dough and when you roll it out it keeps shrinking back into its original shape, but eventually rolls out and stays there. So I think what I’m feeling at the moment is part of a bigger change that he is working in me. So I can be present with him, with my family and with others and partake of the actual freedom that he gives.

I want to see God move, I want to see miracles, signs and wonders, people healed in loads of different ways. I want people to know the miraculous, healing love of my saviour Christ and that he is for them. I want to recognise the ways God moves in every single day, the so called small things, the big things, freedom given to people who need it. This is what I am praying and what I want to step into.