Welcome back Cathy

Slightly strange one but here goes..

Introducing me, yes, me! I am Cathy. Only God knows me properly. I used to think I knew myself, self awareness and all that, but I didn’t.

I can be introspective, I am thoughtful, but also quite often speak without thinking and also interrupt! (Although that isn’t nearly as bad as it used to be). I love meeting people but then need to recuperate. I used to think I was extroverted, but I am discovering I may be well and truly introverted. But whatever, however I’m made, I’m made by God and fully accepted.

I love fun, I remembered that today as I drove the jeep up our field, me and the kids. It was great! It lifted me. It made me less serious for the day. When did things/I get so serious??!! I videoed it but it won’t upload on here for some reason.

I love music, I love singing, I love dancing, I love worshipping Jesus, I love doodling and writing (especially with God), I love growing things and the soil, I love playing my flute (although I don’t do it very often nowadays). I love my family and friends and playing with my kids. All of which are gifts from the big man ( that’s God by the way) and I love him more than any of that stuff.

I am sensitive, which means I sometimes take offence and have to deal with that. I also hate hypocrisy and rules for the sake of rules. The sensitivity also means I’m sensitive to the Holy Spirit and to atmospheres. I often ‘feel’ atmospheres and sometimes let them affect me instead of me affecting them.

I am me.

I am sick of feeling like I have to mask me.

I need to deal with it.

I don’t need to be accepted by people, I am accepted and beloved of God. The highest of the high.

I can just be.

And that is what I feel God is telling me to do at the moment. Just be.

So that is what I will do. I will just be, I will spend time with Him, I will have fun, I will rest, I will feel things, I will grieve! I will do what he has given me to do. Which is be with my family, take care of them, be where we have moved to and take care of that place too.

It has been said that God will work through us here in this place (our home) and that is where we must be. Which is good. We will keep listening though. I feel it should be a time (at the moment) of quietness and intimacy with God, of resting in Him and recuperating for a while.

My heart is just to abide in God, through Jesus and be guided at all times through the Holy Spirit. Doesn’t always happen, but that is my hearts desire. So my confidence is in Him. He who works all things for the good of those who love him and are called according to His purposes (not ours).

I still have faith that He will do immeasurably more than we ask for or imagine this year and in the years to come. He is God.

Let rip Lord! We need you! I pray for more and more people to know your glorious love.

Cathy