Bowed down..

So I’ve just been on my knees weeding and talking to God, asking Him what I should do my next blog on. I don’t want to just ramble on about nothing..

I heard what are the two things you’ve learnt recently. The two main things.

I thought and said it was how love wasn’t what I thought it was and also about how life isn’t about having it easy and doing what we like, despite what the world tells us.

God has answered prayer recently. I’ve had an increased love for reading my bible again, I’d prayed for that. I just hadn’t been able to concentrate and now I can. I then had an experience the other week where because of His presence I literally wanted to just throw myself to the floor at his feet. And yes, He used a statue of Jesus on the cross which is in the grounds of our local Catholic Church whilst I was visiting a bottle bank to give me that experience, and I feel like that’s changed me again.

What has this to do with love? And hardship? It points to His love, the love of the father, wanting the best for his child, His ways being higher than ours and how the most important thing (I think) is to be immersed in Him.

I read an article recently by Desiring God about love and specifically about the sentence..”love others as you love yourself”.. I was also reading this passage before I read the article and felt God change my perception. What changed was that I’ve previously taken this to mean take care of yourself, love yourself, almost pamper yourself and then you can love others, but that is not what it’s about. We do need to look after ourselves, rest, food etc but it’s not a pre-requisite. The pre-requisite is to know God’s love.

To love is to love like God loves us – and He went to the cross (for the Joy set before Him). It’s to think of others first, to treat them how you would like to be treated or better. To truly love someone is to think about their needs and not harming them or luring them into sin in any way, or blindly agreeing with them (or talking about them). To look to God at every step. 1 Corinthians 13 is pretty much the definitive guide too!

I have a children’s book called ‘when I pray for you’ and there’s a part where it says that you want their life to be a prayer. Life to be a prayer! So powerful. I’m not saying I’m any good at it but God changes us. It’s also about doing what is right and good and proper. God doesn’t want us doing things which are bad for us.

We’re made in His image, that struck me last night whilst reading. We are made in the image of God. Isn’t that powerful and amazing. Repeat after me, I am made in God’s image.

But we have to be changed once we come home to Him. He makes us like Jesus. So part of that is He lets us go through hard times, He’s with us every step of the way but we need to learn when to say no, when to say yes, to be conformed to His image whilst being unmistakably and categorically the individuals He has made us to be.

It can be painful saying no to things we want and it sometimes feels like temptation can be too much. Then I’m reminded that Jesus faced every temptation that we are confronted with and that He is our ambassador. He experienced every temptation yet was without sin. And we now have His spirit. Doesn’t seem real sometimes, but it is.

Sorry if any of this doesn’t make sense to you. It’s mainly me making sense of my world..

Ask him if he’s there, ask Him if He’s real. When I wrote my testimony of the day I was saved recently. I was reminded that it wasn’t a short process and I’d been at the end of my tether and had been challenging Him and repeatedly asking Him if He was real and there. I’d been praying the Lord’s Prayer, because it was the only one I knew and asking, asking asking…

That was when everything started looking brighter.

Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Matthew 7:7).

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A Jesus follower who with her family are attempting (probably comically) to start a different type of life in a totally different place, but starting where we are and rolling with it and seeking God all the way, well trying to... #theshepherdsadventure

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