Ouch!

It’s funny but I was just sat here having a cup of tea and suddenly thought ‘my dad’s died’ and teared up. Isn’t it strange how losing someone effects you. Normal morning, normal conversation, feeling pretty ‘normal’ then ouch, pain. I suppose it makes me aware to the fact that there is a lot going on inside all of us though. Definitely more than meets the eye.

1 Samuel 16:7

But the Lord said to Samuel. “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”

This is one of the many reasons I love God, he sees our hearts, not just our outward appearance. Thank you Lord.

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School?

So today we nipped into a local pre school to have a look and see whether there are any places for J. J was very well behaved, it must be said, he looked round carefully, played with some play dough, pursed his lips and shook his head. We got outside and he said very calmly “I’m not going and I am NOT going to change my mind”.

We are currently in negotiations 😂

(Meanwhile littlest was yelling because he couldn’t go in with the little ones, he was raring to go)

This was yesterday in our little wooded area. I have to say I can see his point… I’ve never liked classrooms either. ( No detriment to the preschool, they were lovely and there was lots of activities and messy play).

Shopping

Do Lidl have straps to hold the little kids in the trolley in the uk? I can’t remember, I know they don’t here. Which means you have several options:

  1. Go somewhere else
  2. Bribe them with food
  3. Let them run amok with their older brother whilst you’re trying to shop. (no they won’t both walk placidly with me)
  4. Physically restrain them (I can talk to and tell the littlest for a while and he does stay in for a bit..only for a bit)
  5. Carry them – scratch that

We went there this morning, I like Lidl in general, but the strap thing should definitely be suggested. I want restraint!

I was actually wanting to go to Aldi, (where they do have restraint) but their trolleys only take 2 euro coins (I didn’t have one).

It was sort of ok until the till, I bribed him with some fig rolls out of a packet I was paying for and J was enjoying putting things in the trolley and having a little run… then as soon as I start trying to do the put on belt and run round the other end as fast as possible to fling everything into the trolley again, J insists on “helping” which consists of literally hurling the milk cartons from height into the trolley and standing where the trolley is meant to go and littlest stands up in his seat, right up. So I’m holding littlest’s hand (firmly) with my left hand, trying to stop him climbing out, whilst flinging the food coming through into our trolley with the right and answering questions about where J’s sweets are etc at the same. Things go a bit hazy there 😆.

We did it though. I think we do quite well and at least there isn’t much tutting here. Not in supermarkets anyway… It was pure comedy really. Pity they don’t deliver though.

Mums (and dads) I salute you! you are doing great!

Subtlety

The last post was maybe a bit too subtle. (It has beautiful day lyrics in it). So back to good old straight forward today.

Our cars have both been sorted, yay! Taxed, tested, insured… O Rourkes in Carrick have been brilliant and really reasonably priced for the whole new number plating, headlight focusing and even noticing a bulb needed replacing and not charging extortionately thing! And the fella in the NCT place remembered me! (Mainly I think as the woman who left her buggy by the side of the car and drove off) but also remembered the car and said he could see Chris had done a lot of work on it. Chris did, on his Saturdays off he has been working on it (and it wasn’t easy stuff). So they’re sorted, which is a relief. I never got the buggy back though…

What this means as well is I have a car again! I can go out! Wahey!

When we’re coming home I love the part when we drive out onto the lane that takes us home, it sort of feels like “and relax”..

A cars eye view.

It’s a beautiful da-ay…

As the well known song goes. It has been a beautiful day. Very windy, I quite like wind (Chris and J aren’t that keen) but also very sunny and warm. Look at that below we’re seeing the world in green and blue.

Chris has been scarifying and mowing his runway, virtually all day with barely a break (he’s a bit tired). He said it’s worked well so that’s good! His heart is abloom.

The boys have been outside running around and playing most of the day. Playing like they’ve got no destination. They’ve loved it and I’ve planted some more flower seeds – all this makes it quite a happy day, and we don’t let it get away.

I found some little flowers in the field. shoots up through the stony ground. Don’t know what they are yet, I’ll try and find out. What you don’t have you don’t need it now. So I’ll find out soon.

We also think we’ve decided to keep most of our little wood next to the house instead of chopping it all down. It’s a lovely area, we’ll just get rid of any potentially dangerous trees and keep it. There’s so many birds in it, it sounds beautiful. I love watching for them too, See the bird with a leaf in her mouth.

also, this is meant to be J’s picnic rock but it’s now also my rock. You’re in the mud up here.

It’s perfect, for me, up there at the top of the field, it’s special and it’s secluded. I can sit on it and look all around at the mountains and countryside and think and pray and worship. It feels like you’re on the road but you’ve got no destination. I definitely need that space at the moment! It’s just when to get it quite a bit of the time.

Thankyou God for everything. For life, for love, for the fact you gave your life so we can have life and be alive. Teach me, I know I’m not a hopeless case. Thankyou. Amen!

Light

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it. (John 1:5)

This is another favourite verse of mine.

Tonight I’m thinking about Jesus being arrested and taken off to be hideously abused and then hung on a cross to die. I’m thinking about what it means and why He did it. Luke 22 is a good place to read.

I’m also thinking of the light he gives, Of the resurrection and celebration that is coming and that he gives us when we come to him. There is no situation he cannot shine his light on. There is always hope. Through Him, through Jesus.

He is real, He is alive, He is why we are here, He is who we need, He is Jesus.

Month 4 in the Shepherd house!…

It feels like longer than 4 months strangely.

So this morning I went to get the headlights focused on the car so it’ll pass the NCT to be told it’s better to have it done just before as a slight bump can affect them…how silly is that? That it can fail because you go over a bump..anyway! We’re going back next week to have them done.

We’ve also been outside again, I’ve done a bit of digging, J has been using the loppers (he really enjoys it) and littlest has been playing. Chris hasn’t been very well at all and has been off work and in bed, he has a sickness bug we think. He must be ill, he’s refused nearly all food and drink apart from water 😶

It’s a lovely day, it’s meant to be cloudy but it isn’t. It was a shame to come in. In fact J is creating because I’ve just brought them in…

starting a little bit of an experiment outdoors, nothing major but I’ll see how it goes! (see above circle). more to come…I’m still deciding on the exact plan..

The soil is majorly wet on the back of the veg plot so I’ve tried to cut a bit of drainage into the bed I’ve dug. It’ll hopefully dry out again over the next few days.

it’s so strange what you find when you’re digging, today it was a little clear bottle and some cutlery.

and before anyone says it, no I don’t think the cutlery is worth anything.

The bottle is a lot smaller and cuter then it looks there.

I’ve decided I need to start painting the walls soon…I may start with our bedroom (as soon as it becomes a bedroom and I’m not going to step on a plane…)

really need to get a shed sorted!..