With the ups…

So a slight disappointment this weekend, well a big one really.  We’re not sure whether our house sale will go through now, so we are waiting to find out. I said I would report everything on here, the ups and the downs. So I am. I’m not giving any details though, God is good and he is in charge. God bless the buyers and may they do the right thing, whatever that is. Over and out.


I love my family.


The battle for the mind

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So, the other week Chris had this majorly intense God experience on his way to work in the car and he text me to tell me that he thought God was going to give us the croft. This is his experience in his words:

I was driving to work and continuing to pester God for the croft and praising him for who he is and what he has done for me when I suddenly felt him say in my spirit “I will give it to you. “Wow thank you, thank you, thank you, I said over and over, then I experienced his enormity and felt so small in his presence total awe mode. I just cannot explain the weight of the experience, again he spoke to me very clearly and succinctly “put me at the centre and the animals around it”. Bang you can imagine how I felt completely undone before him trying to keep focus on the road in front of the car. Words I will never forget or cease to contemplate.

So the quandary was, was this really God? although reading the above text I say yes, yes, yes.  Do we say about this? Do we relax and completely trust that he is going to give it us? or is it just us wanting the croft and is it wishful thinking? I’m sure a lot of those who don’t believe or follow Jesus probably think it is just a way of reassuring yourself or something along those lines, or even completely bonkers. It probably does to some believers too.  But to us who have knowingly experienced God’s presence and healing in our lives, we know that he is real and that he speaks. Do we put our money where our mouths are and say God is going to give us this place? oooooh, that is risky. Not risky to God, but risky to us because we feel like our reputation depends on it in a way. What if it isn’t right? what if we have said God is going to give it to us and he doesn’t? Then it will look as though he isn’t real!! and we will look like fools…

There you have it. God is going to give us this croft. Our offer has been accepted in principle.

It is a God given gift, which doesn’t mean it will be easy. In fact, I cannot imagine it will be.  It will be hard work, a completely new place, new people to us, different culture, away from friends and family – but so, so exciting.  God is with us in it. He is for us. He has given it to us. God is light, he makes everything pure and beautiful, he is lovely.


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If you are reading this and do not know God, have fallen away from him or are not sure what is real – I challenge you to ask him if he is there and what he has for you.

His plans are good even if they don’t always seem it. 

“Taste and see that the Lord is good, blessed is the one who takes refuge in him” (Psalm 34:8)


It’s a sunny day

It’s a sunny day, I am sat in our living room typing and can see butterflies in the garden, my eldest is staying at the moment, so she has just gone upstairs, littlest is asleep on our bed and toddler is downstairs with me watching Richard Scarry on YouTube, it’s got to go off soon! I keep saying that though. It is a practical day today, shopping, cleaning, playing, cooking, waiting!!! We are still waiting to see if our offer is accepted on the croft. But, as I said the other day, today is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it.  I’m glad for all you football nuts that England won the other night, but I’m afraid I don’t watch it or follow it… So here’s wishing you well, I’m sure I’ll know how it’s going by just listening to the street noise on Saturday.  The other night you could hear cheers from various parts of our neighbourhood all at the same time.

So! waiting….


 The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. (Lamentations 3:25)

For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay. (Habakkuk 2:3)

But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices! (Ps 37:7)

Therefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him. (Isaiah 30:18)

etc etc etc…there are tons of scriptures about waiting, these are but a few….our God is good. I’m still checking my emails every few minutes though…hahaha…this is because I am still impatient though, not because God doesn’t do what he says.



Awaiting response…

After I wrote yesterday’s post, the solicitor emailed us the draft of our offer for us to ok, which we did and so our offer on the croft has now gone in…gulp… So we are just waiting to hear now.  So, probably very predictably I have this morning been questioning whether we are making a huge mistake or a massive amazing leap of good or god ness. I think it’s partly because we watched the first episode of BBC documentary on Fair Isle the other night, Fair Isle: Living on the Edge.  Wow it is full on,  beautiful but full on, but what really got me was that their children have to go away to school on Lerwick, Shetland at the age of 11. I found that really upsetting, so I double checked what it was like where we may be moving and it is fine. It is more like 15/16 when they have to go further for education, which seems a lot better to me.

So, hopefully we should soon know whether we are moving  700 ish miles to the most northerly islands in the UK to what is effectively a smallholding, when we have so far spent our married life in a terrace in Chesterfield, or whether we are not yet moving and still need to find somewhere…. Oooooh….watch this space…and pray…..

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This is the day…

“This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it” (Psalm 118:24)

I’ve been thinking about this scripture this morning. There is so much in that one line of scripture.  It doesn’t sound like it on first reading, but there is. There is the fact that God created everything, including all of us. There is rejoicing because of this and being glad of this. There is also the decision taken to rejoice and see the good of the day.

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But also, with Jesus we can all be free of shame, guilt, bitterness, unforgiveness and addictions, just to name a few. We can be free of all the stuff that we’re all living with but actually don’t know what to do with and don’t know where to go with. We can only know forgiveness and freedom in our lives when we go with Jesus and acknowledge that he came for us, he came for us in our squalor and filth, hopelessness, helplessness and sin and lived and died and rose again to save us and reunite us with father God. Don’t you think that is just incredible? Just think about how Jesus suffered. He was tortured and I mean tortured, physically and mentally and then crucified. He was separated from his father God in order that he might fully understand what it is like to be us and all this because man betrayed him. But you know what he said? He said, forgive them, for they know not what they do. That is something to rejoice about. Jesus is Lord. He is over everything. He is in everything, even (or especially sometimes) when we don’t understand and when asked, forgives everything and gives new life. He also never, ever takes this back.


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Look at this hand, isn’t it amazing? Look at the detail. God designed that.

I’m preaching to myself in this too, I am prone to anxiety, I am prone to that tightness in my chest and whirling in my stomach that feels as though bad things are going to happen and makes you feel lost, like you don’t know what to do first and everything seems overwhelming. It can rob you of your joy and life and affect people around you. I am also aware I am completely unable to actually describe what it feels like properly. It is not nice, but God quiets me and I can tell him everything and anything and then peace is possible. The bible tells us that God gives us peace that surpasses understanding and I can guarantee that he does. Even in the midst of turmoil.

We are still waiting for the solicitor to email us the draft for the offer on the Scottish property at the moment, apparently buying a croft is more complex than buying a house and can be a bit of a minefield. I don’t know why, but we will make a choice to trust her judgement. Hopefully we will see the draft  today and get the offer in. God is in charge, not us. So today! I make a choice to trust Him, rejoice in Him and see the good surrounding me. Jesus gives peace to your soul.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. (John 14:27)

He does not give as the world gives. He gives purity and light and cleanness and LOVE.

He is love.

Not much to tell, but hello from Orkney!

Hi! The update on the moving front is that the survey was done on our house last Friday, we don’t know what it says yet but hopefully nothing major. We also asked our solicitor to put an offer in on the house we are interested in on Shetland, but haven’t heard back yet!! It is painful, we have heard nothing. So we are praying that we hear something soon.

We’re now on holiday on Orkney. It is beautiful, it is not nearly as hot as England and there is generally a breeze even when it is warm. Which suits me! The boys are loving it, the three year old has been able to run free around the cottage and on the beach. Chris has done some videos with his drone, click on the link to view one, it’s really good and shows what it is like where we are staying: first flight

IMG_5390This is where we are staying. It’s pretty special.

It is so quiet here, I’m loving the quietness. You go outside and just hear the birds, the sea and sometimes a tractor. You can almost hear the silence when you’re outside. That is something I really needed. God is good.


Oooh isn’t it funny

isnt it funny how the simplest things can make us sometimes. It is with me anyway. Do other people do this? Our Scottish solicitor rang me today to talk about the property we’re interested in. Anyway, before she rang, I was really nervous and I don’t even really know why. Thoughts running round inside me were – what if I can’t understand her and look like an idiot? What if she hates English people? What if she doesn’t like me? what if the kids start screaming and I can’t hear her? I don’t know what I’m doing and it’s going to show… Why does all this stuff even matter??!! I text Chris and he said “she’ll love you” and my first thought (which I wrote down) was, why would anyone love me? What is there to love? And then – why does this  even matter!!!??? Scary!! Realising that was how I felt at that moment was a little shocking…


So I started doodling with some paint that our boys had been using, to dispel the nervousness while I waited. The truth of the matter is that God loves me, and that is the place I need to be coming from. When we realise the King of the universe made us and loves us and is in charge, then we become able to live and love from that place.

God proves his love to us in this: while  we were still sinners, Christ died for us.(Romans 5:8)