I wasn’t going to do another one today but I’ve just realised courtesy of Facebook memories that I was saved by Jesus/born again/gave my life (whatever you want to call it) 11 years ago today.
That got me thinking, I thought I’d go back over what happened that day, as far as I remember – it was 11 years ago…
I’d been to church that morning, since going to my friends daughter’s dedication, I’d been back a few times I think. I’d go to their house first and walk to church with them. I don’t think I would have had the bottle to go otherwise. Going made me very jittery/nervous, but I REALLY wanted to go. As I walked in, or even along the road I would feel my heart hammering.
I remember when I first went and I felt like people could see into the very depths of my soul… like they could see all the filth inside of me, all the bad thoughts, wrong actions, stuff.. I became very, very aware of it all. Of course, they couldn’t, I hadn’t actually met many nicer and more friendly people, but God was making me aware of why I needed Him I think.
Anyway, I’d been and come home and I’d been sinking into depressions quite a lot, I went up to bed for the afternoon trying to hide from everything under the covers…hibernation mode.. when the words to one of the worship songs kept going round and round in my head “God stepped down and lifted me up, God stepped down and lifted me up”. Over and over, I think it’s actually us not me in the song, but it was me he was saving… I kept trying to remember the rest of the words and couldn’t. I then remembered a booklet called ‘why Jesus’ someone at church had given me that morning. I read it, engrossed.. there was a prayer at the end..I said it..then there was the most amazing feeling. I was suddenly filled with energy, it was like I could bounce! I leapt out of my pit and contacted my friend to ask what had happened. She said if you said it and meant it, you’re a Christian! I was like, what? Really?
That was the first day of being saved, my first day of truly being alive, forgiven, made new.
It was amazing.
Thankyou my Jesus.